Moving on.

There’s moments in life when I think that expressing myself in English just feels right (what other language needs just one letter for first person singular, heh?). This is one of these moments.

At the moment I just feel like I really somehow want and need to move on in my life. I’m not only talking about areal moving (which I am really looking forward to in the first quarter of next year) but about how I look at my life and expect it to work out, you know. It’s not that I’m not happy with what I have, how it’s working out so nice right now and stuff, and how my life is but, to be honest: I want more and I won’t achieve it only while sitting at the screen the whole day, drinking a lot of unhealthy Coke, coffee and the tuesday night-prime time-TV series episode to be the climax of the day. It’s not important to have the largest plasma screen at home. It really won’t change your life. Not your life nor the life of anybody else.

On the other hand I’m not sure whether I’m just impatient or still having a look at life through one of these pairs of pink glasses. Or I’m just one of these sissy whiners not valueing what they’ve achieved in life. I guess it’s a bit of all of this.

I guess, some of the right steps will be not only moving to a new flat and going my own way without inmates but also taking care of my healthiness. Leaving the “virtual world” behind and connecting to reality again. It’s not that I’m really living in a virtual world but I don’t want to end up beeing one of these virtual geeks that prefer spending their money on a new car in spite of the summer holiday at the beach. My big fear is becoming someone like these guys as I’m dealing with this freaky business all day and night. As I’m becoming twentyfive next year I’m hoping for some bigger changes. I’m hoping for feeling more like a grown up (or at least like someone becoming a grown up.) and focussing on the more important things in life than expensive cars, lunch and gadgets, even though it’s nice to have.

These are just random thoughts running through my mind tonight. These are changing everyday. But the next years will be fun, trust me.